A Little Life Drama for Your Reading Pleasure

Sorry about last night’s overly dramatic blog post.  I just wasn’t quite ready to “put it out there” and really type what’s going on.  Sometimes it’s better to just do a blog entry about Christmas traditions.  I mean, those are happy things, am I not right?

But, today I’m ready.  The hospital that I work at has been having an operating loss the last few years… and my shifts are getting further and further apart…  and yesterday during a meeting they announced they’d be doing layoffs.  I, of course, wasn’t at that meeting but I received an email.  Per diems (which I am, and that basically means I work when I can) will be the first laid off.  Hence, I am being laid off.  I mean, the chips are still going to fall and blah, blah, blah but I’m pretty sure I’ll be out of a job.

Of course, getting news like that isn’t great.  You instantly think about your family and how you’ll provide and how you’ll go on.  I was pretty upset yesterday afternoon.  Of course, to the naked eye it looks like Drew and I have been spendthrifts lately but we just got to a point where our savings was pretty comfortable, should anything happen.  And now something has happened.

So, this morning in the shower I think about our budget.  We’re currently throwing a lot of “extra” at our mortgage and our IRA’s, and we can cut those out — at least for a bit.  And shockingly, if I am not making money that decreases our tithing by quite a bit.  Long story short, we’re fine.  We’re a little short, but there are some “luxury” items we can cut-out…. and we’re gonna switch to Hulu from digital cable (which was our plan anyway).  And we still have a nice savings.  Not to mention Mr. Obama and his extending those tax cuts.  Thank you for that, no so much thanks for the Healthcare overhaul.  You big jerk.

This morning I worked out with a pit in my stomach.  It’s just sad news no matter how you look at it.  I HATE looking for/ training for new jobs.  It’s just not a favorite of mine.  I don’t like uncertainty.  I also really like my job, and I will be sad to leave it.  As I finished the workout and got down on my knees to pray and read the scriptures the idea that faith and fear can not co-exist entered my mind.  I told Heavenly Father that I had complete faith that he would make our family alright.  I told him that I hated having this pit in my stomach and I knew that he could take that away… and he did.  I am pitless, unless you count the bottomless one that is my actual stomach. 🙂  Well, and my armpits.  Those are pretty awesome too. 🙂

I feel bad feeling badly, because we are so OK.  There are a lot of people at my job who aren’t so lucky and are in much more precarious positions.  My heart goes out to those people, and I pray for them.

Anyway, I’m not writing this blog for sympathy but I am realizing that a lot of job hunting is networking and thinking about who you know.  I’m not in a position to take any ol’ job.  I mean, if money was the issue I’m pretty sure I could find a job fairly quickly.  I’ve been a nurse for a LONG time in a lot of different fields… but I need to find the job that’s right for me AND my family (if it was just for me I think I’d go get an awesome ER job, I’ve always wanted to work ER).  If you know of anything that I’m qualified for I’d love an email.  I mean, I have no idea who reads this blog… I’m sure they all adore me! 🙂  I’m sure at least 1/2 of those people want to HIRE me. 🙂

Also, this blog is starting to bring in a little cash each month and I wouldn’t mind a little love on your own blog.  I’d love some new readers, some clicks on the ol’ advertising…  I must admit the ads that blogher finds are pretty appealing.  Miss P could use some weebles, I’m fairly sure.

Anyway, sorry about last night’s “disguised” post.  I just wasn’t ready to say it.  I’ve been working pretty much since I was 18.  A small part of me wonders if this isn’t the time where I learn to play stay at home mom for real, but a large part of me really wants to keep up with a job. I know Heavenly Father knows my needs though, and he’ll figure out what our family needs.  He’s always done it before.

Anyway, blah, blah, blah I still have a job right now so I should get busy keeping my life in order.  I’m so grateful for the blog and how I can think out my thought process so clearly on here.  Thanks for reading this (if you made it through).  I hope you never get in this situation (although I’m sure plenty of you have), but if you do, maybe these thoughts will give you a little comfort too.

Happy holidays readers, it’s the most wonderful time of the year! 🙂