Replacing Fear with Gratitude #20: Princess P

When I look at this little wonder a lot of fears are eased.

We spent a few years wondering if there would be a #3, and when labor and delivery nurses are pregnant I think it is impossible to imagine the fears that run through our heads.  Every delivery that goes/has gone bad every mom who has a problem, you just KNOW that will be your fate as well.

But she came, and she was perfect, well as perfect as a now sassy 3 year old could be.

And God has a timetable for us.  I think a lot of our fears can be attributed back to wanting to live our own timetables…  She came when it was perfect for her to come. 

Love her.  Mostly.

So, let’s get on with my top 10 of this little she-ra.

1.  She is learning how to read.  She is actually getting through books now, and not just on her own memorization skills.  I love it.  I love teaching my kids, I derive a huge amount of joy from it.  I will also be happy to pass her off to Kindergarten in a couple of years.

2.  She really loves me.  I kind of always wondered what it would be like to have a kid who missed you an ounce when you leave them.  Turns out it’s not so great, but part of me is happy to have a little one who ADORES me.  She can’t get enough of my hair or my face or my voice.  She wants me all the time.  Yay.  🙂

3.  She is girly.  I know I used to be afraid of what a little girl would bring to dinosaur town, but turns out fairies and princesses don’t bite at all.  Dinosaurs do, fyi.

4.  She loves her clothes.  As do I.  I get a lot of joy from going to Goodwill and finding great outfits for her for like 3 bucks.  Double yay!

5.  She is normally pretty amazing at meetings.  I have a lot of meetings with my many pto positions and she is a champ at them.  I recently had a 3.5 hour one and thanks to the leapster and a few minutes on my phone she did great.  Thanks Princess P!

6.  She loves her friends.  When one of her two best friends come over she hugs them and say she is SO happy to see them.  I see a visiting teacher in the making in this one.  She loves the ladies.  Not so much for boys, besides her brothers….

7.  I love all the time I get with her.  There are days where I feel like I’ve been the mother of a tiny forEVER and it will never end, but normally I really love the groove that we get in.  I will truly be a mess when she leaves me.  A happy mess, but a mess.

8.  I love to cuddle on the couch with her.  She would like to live inside my rib cage, but somtimes my lap is enough.

9.  I love it when I come home from whatever thing I’m at and she throws her arms around me and tells me how much she’s missed me and that she loves me SO much.

10.  I love how at Costco when she wanted their GINORMOUS (and insane) dollhouse she just kept saying, “I want that dollhouse mom.”  And I told her she’d need to ask Santa, so then she screamed  “SANTA, I REALLY WANT THAT DOLLHOUSE, OK?”{waiting for his reply}.  Not to be outdone by her trick or treating by saying, “I NEED CANDY!”  Tactful, not so much.  We’ll work on that after she’s reading. 🙂

Anywho, this little girl brings so much joy, peace and hope into our lives.  I worry a lot about raising a girl in an age where people make SO many awful mistakes, but I know I just need to work hard at being her mamma.  And hopefully she’ll still hold my hand for a few more years.  In the meantime I’ll savor every minute of her little-ness.